Boku no Kuesto(My Quest}

                                                    I feel lost today.

Thinking that there is no way.

Can I go on ?

To go far and be strong.

I want to believe that there is good in me.

To not be selfish or mean.

Allow me to continue writing.

Its my way of fighting.

Fighting off the forces of negativity.

A way of finding peace.

that is what writing achieves.

For me this is not the end.

I want to be there for my friends.

People only give me advice to help me

not be against me any way.

It starting to come back the words I need to say.

I should listen more and talk less

That right there will get me out of the mess.

Lord I ask for you to forgive me.

Forgive me for doubting.

Let me look toward the future and Smile.

A smile that last for a while.

Another Poem and Another Note. :(

Writing away as times passes by.
Hiding away from the blue sky.
Why are you still in my head.
Is there anything else to think about instead.
Dreams where you are happy with me.
That is something so I won't feel crappy.
I don't see why these thoughts still exist.
I believe I have accepted your decision
Yet, my mind wont let you go.
Try to tell me to have hope.
Doesn't pay sit around and mope.
What lies before me in the new year.
Will it be like this one full of fear.
Even so, I will not dwell on things that I cannot change.
Remember that it is gone so nothing is the same.
If there is hope for me, then I don't see it.
I feel as if I'm not even worth it.
Dreams are more forgiving than reality.
Who on this earth can forgive me.
Its burden that I bear.
To be in despair.
For the people who see as a monster that I am.
Who they claim they can understand.
But they never give me another chance.
Saying that It will just happen again.
Nobody knows that for sure.
I'm tired of feeling sore.
Not wanting any part of this anymore.

The quest for peace.

Going through all this.
Feeling like a helpless fish.
What can you do?
Keep the people you love around you.
Listen and talk less.
It steers you clear of driving into a mess.
We as people have no right to even judge.
That right is only meant for the lord above
He listen to us when we pray and he cares.
Turning us from the people who just stare.
All I would like to have is one thing.
Peace
I would share it with old and young.
Along with the blind and the dumb.
Everyone could use peace in their lives.
with a sound mind.
and enjoying good times

An attempt to Rap. lol Inspired by Dr.Dre

Ya know me.
Guy who hates fighting,
Always writing
Poem fresh outta my head.
I must be alive cause I ain't dead.
Earning my keep, Making dat bread.
Wondering what live has in store.
Is it less or is it more.
Walking out the door.
Breathing in and seeing the sky.
I must be high.
High with positivity
Fall back with that negativity.
I don't need that S**T
Not goin make me it's B**ch.
I am a man.
Man who understand.
I do what i can.
What i'm able to do.
Not hear to impress you.
All that S**t I went through, not cool.
We all fall.
I dust myself off and stand tall.
I'm here for yall.

My friends and Family that support me.

Black Man, Black Man, What do you see ?

Black Man, Black Man what do you see ?
I see a bunch of people staring at me.
Why are they looking at you Mr. Black Man.
They are looking at me because they don't understand.
What don't they understand about you.
That is I will not do the same things that they do.
Mr. Black man, you sure are strange.
That's because little one, over times things change.
As people continue to bicker and complain.
Efforts for peace might as well be in vain.
Remember this Little one.
We must work hard as well as to have fun.
A balance must exist between the two elements.
Ignore the irrelevant.
The little things in life that gives us a reason to smile.
It does help ease things once in a while.

Tired of these MFs

Going far for someone is it worth it?
Not when the result you feeling like shit.
Hanging my head like I just got dissed.
All that for nothing man I'm pissed.
These folks are something else.
Asking for my help
Why am I the last resort?
Why is it there is always something more ?
I don't ask for very much.
Just tired of looking Down, need to look up .
This path I take is a long walk.
Should I just stay quiet and not talk.
Should I let things be the way they are.
Hell no, why should you get so far?
I work hard.
Doing right by others.
I'm tired of these motherf**kers.
Here to make me feel like crap.
Hoping to push my buttons so I  can just snap
I don't want to regret
I hope for the best.
Helping others until Its my time to rest.

Trapped in Darkness, Faith will see me Through.

In the dark my fears come to life.
They completely surround me waiting to take a bite.
Alone and confused.
Don't really know what to do.
Will I survive this ordeal or
will the demons come for their meal.
I stand up to hold my ground.
They come at me and toss me around.
Around and around my mind goes.
Separate from my body, I've become a ghost.
Even as a ghost, I am not at peace.
I have let this demons have their way with me.
I didn't stand a chance.
Looking at myself, How can I call myself a man.
I pray to God and ask for his forgiveness.
I call on his name to help me sort out this mess.
Faith goes a long way.
As long as I believe, I live to see another day.