Break Away- LIl poem.

I want to feel those soft hands

Feel that warmth again.

Be located in a different place.

Have a smile on my face.

Not much luck

This really does suck.

Why am I here.

Why am I so quiet and full of fear.

Fear of what around me.

Wishing and hoping.

Things will be good again.

Maybe I'll begin to understand.

What I must to say

In order to break away.

Today was a good Day- Inspiration from Ice Cube

Waking up in the morning, Thanking God.
Hearing my phone ring, that's odd.
Sometime I wonder why have a phone.
Living by myself, I'm on my own.
Going to outside to see the sun shine.
Damn that sun, it blind my eyes.
Hearing cars pass and kids play
Thanking God that's it's a good day.
Feeling hungry I head to the store.
Getting what I need and nothing more.
Seeing a pretty girl walk right in
Complimenting her on beauty, Epic Win.
Waving good-bye, I head on out
Living each day without fear or doubt.
Heading back to basement for writing.
Find words that click is tiring.
I keep on going till, I get that block.
Intensely focus on the words, I hear a knock
Friend came down to see what was up.
Gave him a nod and said nothing much.
Asking me if i wanted to duel.
Sounds like a plan and I said cool.
The tense battle with the cards.
My opponent comes at me hard.
I analyze my situation and devise a counter.
Clearing the traps making the way for my monster.
Laughing hysterically like a weirdo.
I attack directly and  the points go to zero.
.I enjoy the times where i can laugh.
Remembering the good memories I had.
Life is can be bad but its doesn't last for long.
Good exist as well, Like a peaceful song.
I enjoy writing and have a good time.
It was a good day, Let the moment shine.

A Day without Strife.

A peaceful dream
What does it mean?
Should i take time to ask?
Or will the dream shatter like glass.
Oh man, What to do.
Trying to reach out, but no one comes through.
Pacing back and forth, holding my head.
Hearing the words" Give up"
I hold my ground instead.
To go so far
Trying to feel your way through the dark.
Reaching the end
Knowing who are your true friends
In the end, I do what i can.
Caring about folks that do understand.
The struggle and the hard life.
Can  there be a day without strife?

A little something- Life, fate, Change

Life, 

Full of strife

Taken away by a knife.

Left to bleed out and die.

To prevent such a fate

One must learn from their mistakes.

Knowing which road to take.

Following the path to get to the right place.

Change

It can be so strange.

Different from the same.

Unique as a person's name.

Asking Why

I'm here to write

As time goes on So will I.

Remain who you are until you close your eyes.

 

My Input on Writing.

Writing is something that I like.
Writing what on my mind and it feels right.
Walking down the street drinking green tea.
Listening to Lindsey Sterling.
That Violin combination with the beats.
Shit is so calming
Nothing can bother me.
Writing my expression matching it with rhyme.
I should be this optimistic all the time.
It only shows up when I'm alone.
When I'm not on Facebook or looking at my phone.
I hate being on both and people don't bother to contact.
Whats up with that.
Running away from yesterday.
Is there nothing that i can say.
It was bad,
I was very sad.
That i couldn't enjoy it all.
Watched as my self-esteem took a giant fall.
People around still giving me stares.
Giving me notion that people don't care.
Most people don't and few people do.
Being nice to most folk leads to getting screwed.

Still Searching

Seeking guidance from the lord above.
Going far for someone I care for, That is love.
My feelings are strong like a passing wind.
Allowing it to all come together, its like an epic win.
Searching but to no avail can I find what I seek.
I seek someone that is kind and is unique.
Someone who accepts my feelings and doesn't get scared.
Showing me that this can work because we care.
I'm sorry if I wasn't best choice but I thought you were.
I called out and i though it was your voice i heard.
I kept asking myself what I am doing wrong.
Should I have said nothing, and left it alone all along ?
Women are strange to me, is it my fault that i don't understand.
Giving me all these different signs, Too much to handle I am just a man.
A man who cares for the one loves,
Not hear to play games, to push or to shove.
Listening to songs
Following along
What it means to be a lover
Not to be compare to any other.
Not to go back
To get riled up and attack.
I just need to take it slow and that isn't hard.
Love is about holding it together, not falling apart.

Goal for Me

Going for the goal, that my aim in life.
Why am I constantly stalked by the knife.
Each time I get close, It slips away.
When that happens, I say "One Day".
I want to meet someone and express my feelings.
I shouldn't rush before I come down crashing.
Crash and Burn should be my nickname.
Each time I have feelings for someone it ends up the same.
Even when I wait and ignore that side of me.
Freaking Couples always show where i don't want to be.
When I'm alone, I do a lot of thinking.
All that stress while sitting in the chair, I'm sinking.
Complaining, Crying and whining. When does it end ?
After all that,  Do people really understand?
I'm done reaching out to people who don't reach back.
Why waste money going out when I can sit here and enjoy a snack.
I know who I am and What I've done.
I know I have to face it and not run.
Going back forth driving myself nuts.
Time to get myself out of this rut.
If I'm searching for someone then its myself.
That how i started alone with no one else.
I don't think that way anymore.
Making a goal to be happy more.

My Resolve

Holding on to good memories that I hold dear.
Running into the abyss with no fear.
What will happen to me? I don’t know.
Will I sink down to the deep below?
I will not know unless I take that chance.
If you hear my words will you understand?
The struggle I go through is not game.
Not everyone here on Earth is the same.
I am me and no one else.
From the bottom I start with just myself.
Helping others as best I able to.
Not going to be like the others just to be cool.
I will follow what I was taught.
Giving others hope and not selling them short.
For the world is hard and lonely enough.
Who needs your opinion?
Just Shut the F**k up