Staying on the track

I fall down hard after being so close.
So close to thing I want most.
To be myself and nothing more.
To finally be able to reach that door.
That is my goal.
To be happy and smile again.
A gentle man.
Who doesn't given to anger or fear.
Leaving all that behind all those years.
I've been through a lot.
Yet, I find myself thinking about her.
How we used to be there for one another.
Those thoughts come and go.
For now I need to stay focus on the goal.
The lord is my guide to salvation.
Keeping me on track to the destination.
Have to be calm
Have to be strong.
Uncertainty disrupts morality
and exposes vulnerability.
Days are getting shorter, I have to be ready
No need to rush to the end,
Take it slow and steady.