Questions???

I'm wondering if  I'm doing the right thing?
Sometimes it makes sense to get away from everything.
When the pressure starts taking its toll.
I find myself just sitting there in the hole.
Why am I in the hole to begin with?
How can I make any sense of this?
Feeling depressed is like having cancer.
Please, I would like to find the answer.
To solve the riddle that confuses me.
What do I need to be doing right now?
When? Where? Why? and How?
Will I ever be me again?
So many questions. So much to understand.

Following Destiny

I am alone, feeling lost without a soul.
Secluding myself from society, living in a hole.
I have no desire to leave until my mind is clear.
I know that God is there and that he is near.
I sit on the cold floor and I start to think hard.
Thinking of getting better after falling apart.
Leaving the hole, I start to walk around.
The roar of laughter makes me feel down.
I see mostly enemies but, I also see friends.
I tell them my story and they begin to understand.
Enjoying talking and laughing with them.
When I am around my friends I feel better.
It helps my mood to rise all together.
I do wish I had the strength to stand on my own too feet.
Being able to remember and to think clearly.
The good times is what I live for.
All those bad thoughts can just go out the door.
People are who they are and I am me.
Existing in this world following my destiny.

Who is this Girl? Caam of Gusto.

Caam is a priestess from the wind tribe known as Gusto. Ordered by the oracle; Musto, she is to deliver a message to the Master of the Hilltop Dojo. Her brother, Kamui wants to go with his sister but Musto insists that he stay behind because of his carefree ways. With tears in his eyes, he wishes his sister farewell. Caam smiles at her brother and tells him not to worry. Gulldos,  is one of 3 guardians that protect the tribe from danger. Gulldos flies west toward the Hilltop Dojo but shrieks at the sight of a strange creature. Caam witnesses what is happen and it seems that the black scaled creature is about to attack a black-armored knight.

The creature attacks and Caam is blown away by the sheer force of the blast.She would have fallen to her death if it were not for Gulldos. When Caam awakes on Gulldos's back,she searches for the creature and the knight but there is no trace. She then sees a bearded man and a younger man walking along the road finding a body laying in the dirt. She begins to follow them hoping that they would provide some clues as to the whereabouts of the creature or the knight in the black armor. Sure enough she finds herself at the Hilltop Dojo. Suddenly she hear someone shouting at her demanding that she reveals who she is. Gulldos flaps its wing and sends him flying away. The bearded saves the man life and asks Caam who she is. She tells him that she is from the Gusto tribe and that she has a message for the Master of the dojo.

The bearded man reveals that he is the master of the dojo and Caam bows in respect. She has a  message from the Oracle concerning the future.

The egg that falls from the sky and for the one who finds it will control the greatest force ever known.
The knight who knows no fear. Death approaches whenever he is near. Seeking the ultimate power to rule the universe. Only someone of kin can break the curse.
 As the five gather to combat the deadly duo, they awaken the light of hope. Like a strong rope, their bond cannot be broken.  

"Hearing this message is most distressing" says the Master. He flicks his beard and says to Jin you must train here if you are to defeat your enemy. Jin confused, says my enemy? Then remembering that its was because of Dark Blade interference that he lost Red-Eyes. Without Hesitation he bows to the master and says "Train me to defeat him, I must get back Red-Eyes"

The New Year

The new year has begun.
I stand tall as if I had won.
This tiring battle has worn me out.
 Learning not to give in to fear and doubt.
I am 24 years old. I am not getting any younger.
It's the faith in God that brings me closer together.
Closer to my friends, closer to my family.
Following the path that God has set before me.
Letting the little things, get me all upset.
Allowing myself to get confused, not sure what to do next.
I focus my mind and begin to calm down.
This year It is about the smiles not the frowns.
I will continue to write as I always do.
Through my faith, I know I will come through.
Thanking God each time I pray.
Becoming stronger each day.
It's time that I stopping thinking about past.
I'm tired of feeling sad.
Although I been through a lot, I will not hold a grudge.
Things do happen, even though at times it sucks.
I feel a lot better now, understanding what I did
I will keep going for as long I live.