Prequel

At first i felt as if i had no home.
No life or no hope.
Where did everyone go.?
Will life ever be the same?
I feel as if i am the one to blame.
To cope with it all, to not go insane.
Bring balance to force that is within me.
To not act reckless and actually do some thinking.
Right now, i need to take care of things.
My mind is far from clear.
Repeating my mistakes from the last four years.
Thinking that life is hard but God is near.
He watches over me and tells me what to say.
I thank God for being alive on this day.
Letting me know that it will be OK.