The truth from my experiences.

We are created individually.

Living in a selfish society.

Following the daily routine.

Looking closely

Trying to figure out what it all means.

Not everyone is nice, it seems.

Blinded and Now I see

I'm blinded by love.
I'm Confused, but I still would like to hug.
Why are my feelings so strong.
To be with you is that so wrong?
I wonder will I meet the right person someday.
I can't give up here, so i look up to heavens and pray.
God, guide me to the one that relates to me.
Lead me through the thick fog so that I may see
The one for me...
Looking at the many women that pass me by.
So shy
I struggle just to utter the word "Hi"
One answers back and I go from there.
While she other plan, I was flying through the air.
It felt good to have this kind of connection.
But its like wifi, it works in different sections.
 It doesn't work out for me. Damn that sucks.
Learning from the mistake of leaning on too much.
I been told that I've have a big heart.
A big heart that gets rejected alot and falls apart.
Picking up the remains.
Are all woman the same?
Is it even worth the pain.
I'm would like to be with just one.
One woman.
Who knows what she doing.
Aint about the games or tricks.
All that will do is get you in some shit.
So at the end of the road.
In my heart I know.
That there is someone there for me.
Waiting to be found.

Its a Cold World man

People really get on my nerves.
Things I hear makes me feel like dirt.
I wish that had a mute button.
That way i don't have to hear nothing.
Nothing you say matters anyways.
Grow the fuck up and have a nice day.
I hear ya" make your money".
Money doesn't make me.
Rather being inside just writing..
Those boring days and not a single call.
Sitting down with my laptop against the wall.
Writing the words.
Trying to be heard.
Doing what I can
Can you understand?
What it means to feel like an outcast man.
Trying to be social in cold world.
All those mixed signs, You making my head spin girl.
Just being me and trying to have a conversation.
The end result is me and you have no relation.
Nothing in common and you playing with the phone.
Why did I even bother ?  Should have stay home.
Why are people so cold.
What is there that they care about the most.
I care about helping people out.
Even though I do, I start to doubt.
Questioning every single little thing.
Not exactly what i planned on doing.
Can't do what i need to.
Going out there I don't want to be fool.
Lord Give me wisdom to answer the question.
To listen to that wise suggestion.
To keep me motivated in life.
Keeping me from holding a knife.
There is hope.
Keeping my friends close.

Looking in the Mirror

Looking at the mirror " Am I so bad"

Hearing those harsh words make me sad.

Holding it all in makes me crash.

Then I get asked why am so mad?

I wonder why and say.

I had a really bad day.

Here I am falling apart and yet i stay.

What I need to pray.

Ask the lord to keep those demons away.

They keep coming to bring me down.

Piercing my ears with that dreadful sound.

Only coming when there is no one around.

Dragging me away till I'm no longer found.

Telling me that I'm weak.

Some kind of Freak.

Looking like a creep.

Hearing that makes me weep.

I shake and shake till i wake.

Hearing all that knowing that it's fake.

Only one road to take.

Where I go from here, it's all up to fate.

Break Away- LIl poem.

I want to feel those soft hands

Feel that warmth again.

Be located in a different place.

Have a smile on my face.

Not much luck

This really does suck.

Why am I here.

Why am I so quiet and full of fear.

Fear of what around me.

Wishing and hoping.

Things will be good again.

Maybe I'll begin to understand.

What I must to say

In order to break away.

Today was a good Day- Inspiration from Ice Cube

Waking up in the morning, Thanking God.
Hearing my phone ring, that's odd.
Sometime I wonder why have a phone.
Living by myself, I'm on my own.
Going to outside to see the sun shine.
Damn that sun, it blind my eyes.
Hearing cars pass and kids play
Thanking God that's it's a good day.
Feeling hungry I head to the store.
Getting what I need and nothing more.
Seeing a pretty girl walk right in
Complimenting her on beauty, Epic Win.
Waving good-bye, I head on out
Living each day without fear or doubt.
Heading back to basement for writing.
Find words that click is tiring.
I keep on going till, I get that block.
Intensely focus on the words, I hear a knock
Friend came down to see what was up.
Gave him a nod and said nothing much.
Asking me if i wanted to duel.
Sounds like a plan and I said cool.
The tense battle with the cards.
My opponent comes at me hard.
I analyze my situation and devise a counter.
Clearing the traps making the way for my monster.
Laughing hysterically like a weirdo.
I attack directly and  the points go to zero.
.I enjoy the times where i can laugh.
Remembering the good memories I had.
Life is can be bad but its doesn't last for long.
Good exist as well, Like a peaceful song.
I enjoy writing and have a good time.
It was a good day, Let the moment shine.

A Day without Strife.

A peaceful dream
What does it mean?
Should i take time to ask?
Or will the dream shatter like glass.
Oh man, What to do.
Trying to reach out, but no one comes through.
Pacing back and forth, holding my head.
Hearing the words" Give up"
I hold my ground instead.
To go so far
Trying to feel your way through the dark.
Reaching the end
Knowing who are your true friends
In the end, I do what i can.
Caring about folks that do understand.
The struggle and the hard life.
Can  there be a day without strife?