Goal for Me

Going for the goal, that my aim in life.
Why am I constantly stalked by the knife.
Each time I get close, It slips away.
When that happens, I say "One Day".
I want to meet someone and express my feelings.
I shouldn't rush before I come down crashing.
Crash and Burn should be my nickname.
Each time I have feelings for someone it ends up the same.
Even when I wait and ignore that side of me.
Freaking Couples always show where i don't want to be.
When I'm alone, I do a lot of thinking.
All that stress while sitting in the chair, I'm sinking.
Complaining, Crying and whining. When does it end ?
After all that,  Do people really understand?
I'm done reaching out to people who don't reach back.
Why waste money going out when I can sit here and enjoy a snack.
I know who I am and What I've done.
I know I have to face it and not run.
Going back forth driving myself nuts.
Time to get myself out of this rut.
If I'm searching for someone then its myself.
That how i started alone with no one else.
I don't think that way anymore.
Making a goal to be happy more.