Not knowing whats going on?

Walking out of the room hoping things will change.
Yet coming back I say Dammit its all the same.
I wish I could be confident in myself.
To be my own man
I gained the support of others
I feel like I am alone when they aren't around.
I shouldn't feel down.
Shouldn't feel like this at all.
Rattling my brain around it all.
What do i want ?
Why don't I have some idea.
Is it far or it it near.

Am I so dense?

If so, does it really make any sense.
Looking at the floor.
Hoping for more.
Looking up to say.
Lord let this be a good day.
Gotta sit down and think
I could gone like that with one blink.
All stress I could use a drink.

Going through all this S**t.

Is it really me that causes all of this?

No destination and no clue.
What am I suppose to do.
Really.
I would like to know.
Before I have to go.