One Choice.

One choice to make, one life to live.
I should have faced my problem, instead i choose to hid.
Hiding who i am from you and society.
I can see myself fading quietly.
That was then and this is now.
I can be me and be proud.
Writing my thoughts and feelings in this book.
I learned to take my time and look.
Friends will be there for laughs and support.
Filling up the room with laughter and snorts.
Facing the future what should I do.
Look at your options and then review.
A plan will form from ideas written down.
Sometimes a plan fails causing you to frown.
Its not the end yet, there is still time.
Turn things around with a comeback line.
Don't force anything, just take it slow.
Only time will tell and Only God knows.

Turning Random People into Friends

Where I am , People are so separated.
When I do try to talk, they really get agitated.
Makes me not want to talk to anyone.
I pray one day, we can be united as one.
Friendships take time to create.
They require a lot of trust and effort to make.
I want to make friends but how to start.
I never thought it would be this hard.
It will take time, that I do understand.
Not everything goes according to plan.
I dont know where God will lead me next.
Take one day at a time and time will do the rest.

Another Day

When the sun rises, I start to wake.
Thanking God for this new day.
It is very cloudy today with no signs of the sun.
Watching everyone around me laugh and have fun.
It does however make me a little sad.
I rather be myself  then let myself be mad.
I really don't know how to talk to others.
Trying to relate to one another.
Sometimes it doesn't work
It happen at times but to try at least doesn't hurt.
I am making the effort to  be social.
Gotta learn to speak up and use my vocals.
If I don't say anything then nothing will happen.
Take things into consideration, reach out and grab it.
It will only change if you decide to.
No one else know you better than you.
Do activities that you like, it really helps.
Nothing works better than you making the change for yourself.

Thoughts

To meet someone and say hey.
For some ,that could really make their day.
Not every person is bad but be careful.
Words as well as weapons can be hurtful.
To care for your fellow man like a brother.
Talking and helping out one another.
Trusting someone is like finding a job.
Very hard to find and at times it's hard.
Being there, when time gets tough.
Enough with this nonsense, I've had enough.
Letting the negativity overwhelm me.
The fire all around me consumes everything.
That is what anger does, I have to control it.
what i  have started i have to finish.
It has been a while since the last time.
Having a purpose and a reason to be alive.
I only have one life, no continues or restarts.
No matter what, I have to hold myself together and not fall apart.

What goes on in my head 2

Motivation is what I need.
Focusing on how to help me.
My emotions are all over the place.
Feeling the anxiety, my heart begins to race.
Holding my chest, I begin to fall down.
I just lay there still without making a sound.
My eyes look up but I cannot see.
I don't understand on what is going on around me.
Everything feels so strange.
No longer comfortable, nothing feels the same.
I get up and begin to walk.
I see other people but I do not talk.
If I hold it in, then I fall apart.
Going down that negative path, I don't need to start.
\Being emotionless is another way of not caring.
Being there for one another and sharing.
It's good to have friends who show their support.
To be content with what you have and nothing more.
I'm no longer look back at the past.
Back then, I should have listen and took time to ask.
My thoughts made me believe me that everyone was my enemy.
At that moment, I decided to get help and start my recovery.
Redemption is my main goal.
To climb to the top and to get out of the hole.
I don't want to stay in a room by myself forever.
I learned from experience to not push anyone ever.
I cannot save everyone, especially my friends.
We each have to face ourselves before we face the end.

Interpretation 1

When a situation looks bleak, take a look at the sky.
Sometimes I wish i could go grow wings a fly.
Running from it doesn't help.
Nothing feels better than you helping your self.
Realizing what is important, following what you feel.
You never know when help is near.
Confidence is a good trait, it brings people together.
To be able to go anywhere in any kind of weather.
An aura of positive feeling fills the room.
Like how a flower take it's time to bloom.
Giving up on those care isn't really fair.
Turning your back and disappear to who knows where.
If you need help ask it, takes a few seconds it won't hurt.
Asking someone is better than having your head in the dirt.
Life is hard and full of pressure, hold on to pull through.
Only you can help yourself, then people will respect you.

What i did in Art Therapy.

Dont do what they want. Emotion is all around us.
Sometimes, staying on course isn't necessary the best course.
Break the chain of infection that is a black hole.
Guide your life, develop your skills, and change for yourself.
Give your mind peace and look for the opportunites,
It is time to move forward, the future is now.
Make better decisions, do what you love.
Having a friendship comes in handy.
Don't get forced.
When there's something worth saying u say it.
Make the connection. Take responsibility.
Make the most of life.
Ordinary People can get things done.