I am Alive

I feel like I just achieved bankai
To believe in the truth, not listen to lies.
Here I was feeling depressed and sad.
Taking myself away from the things that make me mad.
Realizing that I have friends out there who care.
Those phonies are nothing but air.
Sandy struck hard but God strikes harder.
He keeps me on track, when I start to wonder.
Wondering what to do instead of doing it.
There is no genie and no 3 wishes.
It take effort to know what you want to do.
That is why i still have a job and I go to school
I am not greedy and I don't envy what other people have.
Content with what I can't just grab.
I know I am good person who does good things.
To not talk so much negative and do some listening.
There is good in me,
Going forth with life, not holding back.
Like a wind that lifts up the kite.
Balance must be perserved.
Keep me from getting any worse.
I have do things on my own.
I am not a little kid anymore I am grown.
Although Life is hard, there is hope.
I am glad I see that, there's no time to mope.
Continue writing my poetry.
My poems are similar like lines of symmetry .
I pray for good times ahead.
Thinking of only the good instead.

A new type of Poem.

I am alone.
My hope is gone.
Feeling Angry I roam.
I roam because I am Alone.
My thoughts run wild.
Cant think or smile.
Feel more like a little child.
I pick up the phone to dail.
I call my friends, no answer.
Watching a movie called Jumper
As I'm watching, I start to wonder.
There 's a storm in my head, I hear thunder.
A voice is telling me not to worry.
Where you're going, no need to hurry.
Wash your clothes, they are dirty.
Ignoring ignorant thoughts, my mind is steady.
I can't allow this to follow through.
All this violence is nothing new.
If it happens to you, that is cruel.
Don't change who you are. Be you.
If I do, Will I get treated the same?
I will not be your tool, I won't change.
I am me and I'm not playing your game.
I am content with what I have, don't need fame.
As time goes on, I struggle to not fall apart.
Man, I wish it was easy, cause this is hard.
There was a time, where I used to play cards.
Till my hope left, and close behind was my heart.
 I feel like there is nothing left.
Taking out like a pawn in chess.
I know I am skilled, Don't want to be the best.
To be a champion, standing out from all the rest.

What goes in my head 7-another Short.

I am outside walking in the cold.
My hands are shaking, Telling me that I should go.
Leaves are falling covering the grass.
I wonder how much longer this will last.
That day is coming, reminding me to be thankful.
I am alive and often considered helpful.
Helping the people because I want to.
Being considerate and them saying Thank you.
Some people not all have hidden motives.
Asking for one thing but really want something more.
Why is that the case?
Why? Can't it be a kind gesture.

Damn this is Upsetting

I am so upset, ashamed of what I am.
Is there anything that I do understand.
Failing my classes at a alarming rate.
How much more do I have to take?
Sandy was bad and no one I knew was hurt.
So why does the pain feels so much worse.
I feel like I am slipping away.
At the house,I stay inside all day.
In the dark, I am alone.
To be honest, I want to go back home.
Up here sucks too many bad memories.
Depression swarming in like a bunch of bees.
Stinging at me wherever I go.
Hanging my head down as I am being told.
I turn away and decide not to listen.
There are a lot of fish, but I ain't fishin.
There is a time and a place for everything.
Whoever God sees is right is fine for me.
Hopefully.
I can be accepted for me and not for something else.

Becoming Stronger

Went to the hospital today for a visit.
Wonder what the doctor will say while I sit.
Can't sleep and really don't feel like eating.
For some reason I have no problem reading.
Reading sci-fi and Percy jackson.
Writing poems is my passion.
I felt like I lost a part of myself.
Feeling alone when I need some help.
Who's is left standing at the end of the night.
Just me in my room, What is my reason to fight?
Fighting for me, there is no room for pity.
No need to complain and say life is shitty.
I've been down a lot and I lose track of time.
I know I am still that same guy who is kind.
To give a helping hand to anyone in need.
Not getting carried away and corrupted by greed.
People and their words, that is just their opinion.
It's there to get me upset, why bother to listen.
They didn't help or try to show support.
Like the unreliable evidence that is shown in court.
I will not listen to people who talk about me.
There are other things I can do, like study.
To pass my class.
To not look like an ass.
Look up at the clouds.
Surviving all that, I can be proud.
My Life has already begun.
To not change who i am, I can have fun.
That infection can harm me no longer.
Faith is the cure, It has made me stronger.
To go outside to see what God has made.
 After all that ,I know that I am not a mistake.

Climbing up

 In a dark and gloomy room.
There lies a man, thinking on what to do.
The storm has made everyone confused.
Having faith in God, he knows that he isn't doomed.
Thanking the lord that at least people are outside.
They may not have power, but at least they are still alive.
Where I am everyone is so separate from each other.
Where are those bonds?
What ever happen to helping out one another.
At least, I have not given up my faith.
With it I know which path to take.
So why is my mind so clouded.
My future is unknown, it is completely shrouded.
Need to help myself get better and back on my feet.
Walking alone in the debris-ridden street.
Watching where I step, One step at a time.
I smile as I see the sun rise in to the sky.
Knowing that One day things will be different.
Knowing what make sense.
Being true and honest about my beliefs.
Finding motivation in myself gives me relief.

The Future is Hmm I wonder?

In my mind I feel so withdrawn.
Nothing knowing what to do, feeling so calm.
In my dreams, I am holding hands with a girl.
Makes me have some hope in the world.
Nothing feels better that having someone there.
Who stands by you and that cares.
I am only human, I have made a lot of mistakes.
I am what God has made.
I am me.
I have to help myself.
Only then can can I help out my fellow citizens.
Having faith in myself allows me to win.
 I am thankful for everything that has been done.
One of these days I will have fun.
First I have to take care of what's important.
Only then I will be absolutely certain.
That my purpose is to help people out.
Telling others that there is no reason to shout.
 Giving it my all and no slacking off.
Its won't be easy, certainly it is rough.
Having my friends for support when it gets bad.
God tells me that it will be ok, don't be sad.
As time goes by, I wonder what my fate will be.
Guided by Faith revealing my destiny.