Knowing What I feel.

Watching the hourglass

Sitting in my class.

Thoughts swirl in my head.

Telling me I am better off dead.

Not going to give in to that.
I am going to live and not feel like crap.
To be alive each day, I thank God.
Giving me advice on what to do right on the spot.
I am truly thankfully for being alive.
Even though sometimes I wonder why.
Going through a lot, I see myself as a survivor.
Getting through it all, all the pain and the hurt.

Got that lonely feeling again.

What is it that I am unable to understand.

Am I afraid to be alone?

To be close to someone fearing that they might go.

I hear all the time, if it happens then it was meant to.

Enduring with all my patience these hard times.

Finding really hard to walk without using my eyes.

I don't like being in that room full of despair.

My eyes are getting bad, I need a new pair.

Showing up to my classes each day.

I tell me myself , I should pray.

Asking to be forgiven for the things I did.
Don't want rush and do something stupid.

At the end, I know what I need.

Being myself content and without greed.