Sinking to the bottom, is anyone there.
Two months have gone by, still can't sleep.
No desire to do anything, not even eat.
It's like I am slowly killing myself as the days go by.
I don't know what is going on inside my head.
Those dreamless nights keep me from feeling refreshed.
I tell myself, I have to accept it and be strong.
For a moment I feel like myself, then it's all gone.
The question that I ask myself each day, Why I am here.
Why are people afraid when they see me get near.
What am I doing that pushes them away.
I keep my silence, Literally the whole day.
Not talking doesn't banish those thoughts.
I am not treating myself like a victim, I know what I did wrong.
Going to school or going out.
I have to pass that house.
Do I want to? No, I wish it didn't exist.
I walk past it like it doesn't bother me at all.
Honestly, who do I even call.
I am emotional, I can't deny that.
However, It's not worth another panic attack.
I really wish I knew what to do.
I don't know if I can make it through.
It is really hard holding myself together.
Fear surrounds me,getting scared of the others.
How am I suppose to move forward?
Sitting in this room will not get me any closer.
No comments:
Post a Comment