I am Human.

I have feelings like everyone else.
Living in a room, all by myself.
I have no problem with facing the fact.
That at times I do get stuck in the past.
It make me feels like I don't do anything.
What have I done and what does it mean?
My anger can make me look like a fool.
Who lets little things make him lose his cool.
Coming to agreement with people is hard.
Especially when it come to life, it can rip you apart.
I have to hold on though it is tough.
Walking on a road that is smooth then rough.
Rough times, what comes from that is a lesson.
At times I ask myself, am I being tested?
Anxiety can cause me to crumble real quick.
Mind falls apart and my body feels like s**t.
Going to hospital to hear my blood pressure high.
Learning how to calm down and make things right.
Taking meds and expressing my thoughts in poetry.
Remembering the days when I climbed trees.
I miss that a lot, whatever happen to that kid.
It"s like I played hide and seek with myself and just hid.
Stay for years in a layers of a thick shell.
Here I am scared of the world, What the hell?
Afraid to know anyone and how they would react.
Not eating right but can sure load up on snacks.
Not able to sleep or being able to dream.
Will this pain go away? Will I be free.
Time waits for no one so let see what happens.
I pray for a positive reaction.
I don't need to alone anymore.
Been there, In life there is so much more in store.
Waiting as seconds go by.
Doing something positive is better than wasting time.

Getting Fed Up

I am sitting down in a room, just thinking.
I don't even move and I'm not blinking.
Those terrible words echo inside my head.
It's all about me, Hearing that makes me feel dead.
Like what the hell have I been doing with my life.
I don't want to bottle up all the stress till I die.
I thought I was doing right by helping others.
Going out of my way, looking out for one another.
Those people are just like me, Human Beings.
They can talk, but they don't even know me.
Leaving the hospital to experience the real world.
Those few weeks the pain was so intense, I wanted to hurl.
Reminding myself that I still have work and school.
The people left standing, still think I am cool.
At least that enough to bring a smile to face.
Why can't the smile last ? Why does it have to fade.
I notice that I hardly ever smile at all.
Can I pick myself after talking that hard fall.
I was never better than the next man.
I didn't prepare myself nor did I have plan.
My faith, I was really losing it.
Like death touched me with a kiss.
No! I will not fade away.
Today might bad but tomorrow is another day.
Who are they to tell me what I am.
Damn it, I have God and my Faith,
That is what I have that makes me
A MAN!

A Dream

Love is being faithful.
Love is the light that shines.
Times when able, I can be helpful.
When I write, Love flows into the rhyme.
There are times when darkness comes around.
Creeping behind me without making a sound.
Suddenly a light comes to life, shining brighter than the sun.
Darkness had no chance, Love has won.
Seeing me on the ground, it touched my face.
Getting really nervous, my heart began to race.
Love has smile at me, telling me to be not be afraid.
Don't not get pulled down by the mistakes that you have made.
God will forgive you and you will meet someone special.
Could I believe those words?  I believe so.
Having faith in myself  to achieve my goal.
It was God who saved me from that hole.
I cannot wait, when will I meet her?
"One day"  Love replied, "now get out of the dirt."
Shaking the dust from my shirt and pants.
Suddenly my legs move and I am able to dance.
Feeling joy like a cheerful boy.
Now as a man, I begin to understand.
Love was telling me to not give up hope.
That's True.
Keeping myself motivated with writing helps me cope.
I am going to continue forward, good or bad.
If I am alone, I will not be sad.
Don't concern yourself with everyone else.
Letting everything get to me feels like hell.
When I'm myself, having feelings for someone.
I will wait, Don't want to ruin it for them.
Consider her feelings, it's not time yet.
I need to be careful on what to do next.
I don't want to hurt anyone,including myself.

Seasons Change.

The leaves fall from the tree.
Cloudy outside, wind makes it really breezy.
Time to put on a hood or jacket.
Black Friday comes around, always a racket.
This year has come to a close.
What will the next year bring? Who knows.
I am looking forward to the spring.
Everything starts fresh.
Don't know what to do next.
Have to prepare myself.
Guiding me, the lord does give me help.
Can't wait for the the summer.
Unlike last time it won't be a bummer.
Running into that special someone that I will meet.
It could be days from now or maybe next week.
I am looking  forward to sharing these emotions.
Love and care put it into motion.
Coming back to me now are the good times.
I will write it down on these blue lines.
Writing is something that I believe is a gift.
Given to me from above, Without question, I accept it.

Short One-Having Faith in myself

What ever happen to going outside.
To commercials that warned about getting high.
Feeling young and just playing around.
All these bad influence are just bad sounds.
Getting to fights because someone said something.
Didn't make much sense, I'm just saying.
We didn't have many good role models.
Honestly, who reads about Herodotus, Plato, or Aristotle.
Where is the world heading?
There is no rush, Just be steady.
Be aware of what is out there and make the right choice.
There is nothing wrong with my voice.
I walk with dignity and no doubt in my step.
When problems come up, it best to have a cool head.
Survivor of depression, overcoming my fears.
Being able to talk about my past without shedding tears.
As I walk down the road, I see people who need help.
I only can help if i am able to, but I have to help myself.
It allows me to be the man I can be.
I don't like being alone all the time. I want to be part of the team.

Fond Memories: Smash Bros.

In the year 1999, a certain game hit the stores.
It was four player fighting game for the N64.
I got this game as a birthday present.
To tell you one thing, I will never regret this.
Nintendo characters going at it.
Mario with a Hammer, DK with his fists.
Yoshi throwing eggs and Kirby doing a split.
In this game, You can be on a team.
They gave me Fox, against Mario and Luigi.
This game is crazy so much you can do.
Heading to saffron city to fight Pikachu.
Smashing Targets and Boarding platforms.
Getting back after getting smashed from the board.
Link has so many freakin projectiles.
Fox reflects everything, bomb blows me away for miles.
Samus is tricky especially her screw attack.
Moving out of the way to avoid the dumb blast.
Lava totally sends Samus on her way.
I taunt as she flies high. Have a nice day.
I find myself facing my clone.
Metal Mario is really stubborn like a stone.
With the help of barrel, he falls all the way down.
Polygon Team is bullshit, teaming up and smacking me around.
At last I finally reach the end.
Just to face this motherF**ker, Master Hand.
Shooting me with missles, Pimp slaps, and Rockets.
What the hell is this. I just want to pull the plug outta the socket.
I keep going kick the crap out of this thing.
Finishing him off with the coin punch, Bling bling.
The credits roll and I thought I was done.
New Character appears, Oh what fun.
Another pokemon that likes putting me to sleep.
With my random combos, B**th get off the screen.
Oh man, those were the days.
Damn it, where is that controller now I want to play

Getting Up

Wanting to change for myself.
Asking for God's help.
On how can I talk to the others.
They stare and I stare back and wonder.
What's with that look?
Shrugging it off, Wanting to read a book.
To get away from ignorance, I go to the library.
Surrrounded by knowledge, reading helps me.
Why do I let doubt take it's toll.
Feeling like I will fail is like taking the fall.
I live for each day.
As long as I breathe, I will continue to pray.
Not caring about what those people think.
They are gone the second I blink.
There are more important things that matter.
Talking about other people is useless chatter.
Climbing up the ladder towards my destiny.
Before I start anything else, Let it begin with me.
Passing school and working hard.
Holding it all together to not fall apart.
From afar I can see faces smiling.
Today is a good day, I can see the sun shining.